3 - Confessions

I should be keeping more up to date but i can never be bothered.
This is the only place i can say everything, even if no one is listening.

I want to dress how i want, talk to who i want, be who i want!
But no one wants me to be an Individual!
I want to wear my sleeves rolled up, i want to wear headbands with little bows on them,
i want to wear multicoloured bracelets, i want to dress in red and black or pink and purple and
i want to be able to wear eyeliner and eyeshadow of any colour i choose.
I want to wear my music muffs, and talk to my guy friends whenever i choose.
i want to like what and who i want to like and i want you to STOP telling me otherwise!
And i want to say what i want without being laughed at !

And i don't care if it bothers you!

What gives you the right to pull my sleeves down, laugh at my headbands, point at my jewellery, comment on my clothes and question my choices of makeup?
What gives your the right to poke fun at who i talk to and stop me from wearing what i like!
Who said that if i like someone that you don't then i can't speak to them, and who said that
you can push me into a guy that i'm talking to? And just because you like someone doesn't mean that i do! And what gives you the right to try and influence me to be something that i'm not?!

*when i say you i mean a few people

Nothing! Nothing at all!

Here's the thing, your favourite dress. Its hideous, your swimmers ugly!
You should wear makeup, you really need it!
You're too pale, you laugh to squeaky, you sneeze too strange!
i don't like most of your clothes,
that guy you liked or as you usually say about me
Are still TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH but won't say it,
well he's ugly too!
Mr No Personality.
You don't have to like who i like, i'd prefer if you didn't!
He thinks your ugly anyway.
There's many other things tool, but i'll stop before i start sounding at horrible as you do.

Don't push me into who i'm talking to, its just Immature.
And don't make up lame excuses about how i'm only angry and you pushed me into
someone i used to like, which i don't anymore.
And even if i did, why the HELL should you care??!?

You shouldn't, and i'm better friends with him than i've ever been with you and ever will be.
You know i'm glad she's leaving, you're all the same, and she only makes you worse.

I've never had best friend, and i don't really care.
I've never had someone save me a seat, or remember that i was sitting with them on the bus.
i've never had someone who went everywhere with me and who
cared about me as much as i cared about them.
I never had someone who wouldn't just ditch me at any chance they got.

And i don't really care. I don't need someone to hold my hand.
I can cope on my own. I don't need you to pity me.
I don't need you to think you're helping me when you're only making it worse.
I need you to leave me alone and get on with your own life.


I need to be an individual and i will do what i want when i want to.
And i want you to know.
That this is how it will be.

That Individual Crazed Brunette xx.